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- Location:home
- Mood:
bored - Music:brandy - full moon
wow, i havent been here in a while
guess things havent really been happening, and if they were, i was too lazy to write about them.
anyway, got my G2 yesterday. that's right--watch out road users.
oh, and:
a) If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want, either good or bad.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph in your journal and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
b) In all honest words - just simply tell me what you think of me.
go for it.
- Location:earth
- Mood: bored
- Music:lifehouse - you and me
i know im late
and i did it just cuz i failed my calc test and needed something to do to distract the frustration..
( thirty to guess )
i listen to weird songs
hence, i dont think many of you will get those
but, i may end up surprised..
- Mood: ehhh..
- Music:will young - your love is king
In the year 2006 I resolve to: |
sounds good. =]
ok, year end review time! [although the year hasnt exactly ended quite yet]
january
- new year's resolution: to be more confident [well that didnt go too bad]
- lots and lots of dreams
- konquest
- units
- uni deadlines
- prelude and fugue
- stress of getting into university
- "dude" troubles
- 3 ball
- indecisiveness with semi
- anime [WHR] and AS
- philo club fights
- typewriter
- badminton intramurals
- struggles with motivation
- kwan's crush
- introduction of tom volpe and [reintro of] patrick chan
- semi and phil's tribal dance [and kyle's personalized dances]
february
- activity day madness [and fob pics]
- pictionary at tracy's with many sad clarence/josh guesses
- much confusion with love interests
- st. henry tutoring
- race: shirley vs josh
- josh's die a little list
- going around the world 4 times while STILL beating josh and clarence
- journalism project
- rejection
- liking of josh
- university deadlines
- more badminton
- depression
march
- international night + dinner and strangely parked car which caused hadad to die in laughter
- first ever confession
- farewell concert
- EUROPE [errrrghhuuuuno;ugwh;woeiterl#$Q^!!!!!!!
- montreal - ottawa - kingston - quebec city tour
- philo day project
- togetherness
april
- more philo dayness
- aunt and cousin left back for austria
- relationship distress
- WORKWORKWORKWORK!!
may
- more work
- last concert
- shirley's rental stalling
- reminiscing about the past and memories
- more depression and pessimism of the future
- WORKWORKWORKWORK!!
june
- last stretch
- exams [oh no.]
- graduation [with luncheon]
- handing out cards with josh and enny for people
- prooooom. =]=]
july
- canada day with josh
- hit a parked van while biking.
- summer boredom-ness
- dominican republic
- dad's cake catastrophe/miracle
august
- first driving lesson
- fob pics with jaq and shirley
- bit of depression
- flood from storm
- lots of baking
- hanging out with the old gang before uni
- summer fun
september
- transistion depression
- eighteenth birthday
- loneliness
- learning to take the bus everyday
- met new people
october
- SO many birthdays
- grandfather got lost
- university tests
- uncle passed away
november
- more university work, more depression
december
- volunteer work at ward
- hanging out with trish and daisy
- got sick for a good 2 weeks
- ONE exam =P
- christmas shopping!
- assembly and reunion
- christmas and several get togethers with family and friends
- holiday fun =]
wow, lots of things accomplished this year.
notice my decline in entries as the months continue =P
highly eventful, lots of highs and lows
started off a bit low, got lower, rose to a high point, struggled a bit, dipped back down, and started climbing again
lets hope it wont fall again
spent new year's with josh
movie, dinner, and hanging out at my place at midnight
i wish i could see all of you more often
it just sucks not being able to revist a place in time
but im glad we got to see each other for christmas, and although change cant be helped, im still glad you're all still here. =]
i have no new year's resolution
but perhaps will stumble across one in time
or perhaps not.
happy two thousand and six!
- Mood:
reflective - Music:this will be - natalie cole
merry belated christmas and happy boxing day!!
spent most of my day at my great-grandmother's hanging out with cousins
but yeah, hope you guys had fun
thanks for all the gifts =]=]
i got a..
tictac ornament [CANDY IN A BALL!!] and gift card for chapters from jaaaaaaaaq
gift cards for bluenotes and gap from shirlaaay
a cookbook, 2 naruto mangas, and a gift card from josh
a snoopy school bus picture frame from kwan
a snoopy pencil from carson
chocolate from lyris
cookies from sarah
more chocolate from the gift wrapping place [FOOD!]
a cupcake recipe book from tracy
another cookbook from my mom and dad
ANOTHER cookbook from my aunt rosanna
a spa kit from my aunt rita
a measure cup [YAY!] from my siblings
candy from janice
money from aunt amelia
card from AM [NOT ms chen!! NOT! NOOO!]
and i think that's it..i hope im not forgetting anything..
yeah, great christmas =]
lots of family time, in which im very thankful for
happy holidays! =]
- Mood:
happy - Music:michael buble - my grown up christmas list
My Weird Habits
Tagged by: echoblaze [- . -]
Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yours" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.
1) i eat things a bit strangely. i eat sandwiches or anything square-ish in a circular fashion and end up with a very small square. i eat pizza crusts first and then start from the tip.
2) whenever i pop out gum from the foil kinda packets, i always must sever the foil in an approximate rectangular which fits the outline of the plastic bubble, then use the piece of gum to pop the plastic back out before using the gum.
3) im always neat anywhere else but home.
4) whenever i watch a movie for the first time [at home] i refuse to pause it or have it interrupted, and must have it run through completely to the end.
5) all typos made by me must ALWAYS be corrected when noticed.
myyyyyyyy turn to tag!
i poke: echoblaze [again, cuz the first time you did it, it sucked], jaxilyn, screamy, jinuken, annnnnnnnd aneirin_enid. GOGO!
- Mood: bored
since i was greeted by snow this morning, i figured christmas finally announced its coming.
and it seems to me that christmas means something different to everyone, except im not so sure what it means to me. im not totally feeling the season as of yet, but i think it means family [and that includes friends that are just as close] and as commercialized as it is, it *is* about shopping [giving/receiving] but i think its moreso being thoughtful of those you hold dear. and this year, it also means exams for me - . - so my question is:
what does christmas mean to you this year?
- Mood: thoughtful
- Music:B2K - everything
holy crap.
im totally wiped out and yet im still updating this thing.
smart, arent i?
anyway, i swear yesterday was the longest day ever
i woke up at 7:15, did calc, laundry, biked to ward, talked to holmes, came back, had lunch, left for stc to get BIRTHDAY GIFTS [damn all you octoberians and my lack of funds], came home, more calc, had dinner early, watched tv, and ... i couldnt think of anything to do. and that was at like 8:30.
i went to bed at 10:30 - 11ish. i honestly had nothing better to do.
today was also long.
woke up kinda late to a phone ringing
my mom picked up. apparently my grandfather [having alzheimers] got lost on his morning walk.
usually it takes him about an hour
this time it took an hour and a half and he still wasnt home
so that's when we got this call from some store by kennedy and finch. yeah, he walked all the way there.
i gots a tough grand pere yo. =P [that was for you shirley.]
yeah, i was running late since mom had to go pick him up before dropping me off, so i kinda flew outta the house without breakfast.
then i had to waste like $2 on a blueberry muffin. did i mention i was low on funds?
had my calc test today. wasnt so bad, but it was just awfully rushed.
50 minutes is not enough time for 12 questions with subparts.
and this is worth 12%, aint that great?
anyway, bought stuff at york for people [MORE BIRTHDAY STUFF] and hung out with chirine since i bumped into her there
attended physics lecture with andrew and chirine.
skipped my comsci tutorial since it was scheduled as a tutorial instead of a lecture today
i really didnt want to review what a start button was. again.
so i decided to hang with jaq for lunch [since i hadnt eaten it yet] and invited andrew along
hung out for a bit, then parted ways. i went to the bus stop, jaq to her tutorial, and andrew, home.
bused to finch station, then took the 53 steeles east to kennedy
where i bought MORE BIRTHDAY CRAP at HK in a box.
bused back home and found a set of keys on the grass by the bus stop
i dont know whose they are, but now i have em and i gotta make signs.
got home, put down my crap, changed, and started making chocolate chip cupcakes since josh is coming over tomorrow and as gifts for people
turned out quite well, but i havent sat since i was on the bus and that seemed like ages ago
so im exhausted as sin right now, and i've got so many birthday parties and stuff to attend its making my head spin
speaking of which, i have a headache and have had it since this afternoon.
i think i shall shoot myself now.
no, im kidding. i cant aim for crap.
=P
- Mood: exhausted
- Music:sky - love song
T minus 5 hours.
oh boy
dominican republic [sp?] here i come.
i SWEAR im gonna come back chocolate.
DAMN.
and you will get that requested postcard jaq, no matter how retarded it is =P
i've never been so tired before
or well
havent been in a while
let's recap! - . -
ok, so got up at like 9 something and started up breakfast
made scrambled eggs for bro and then had a cup of tea for myself
josh came over, we [moreso he] watched the incredibles [incredible movie, mind you] as i did laundry, washed shoes, and made lunch for the pets [siblings].
then at about 1, we went out to eat at boston pizza [a memorable location since it was where we were moments before my mortifying confession]
he had to leave for work after dropping me off at 2ish
*siiiigh* i wish he could come with me and the folks, but he's got work and im not sure if my father would be too cool.
but anyhoo [aha, deceased lingo]
i ended up coming home, and immediately started working on my father's birthday cake
his birthday is on the first of august, but that's usually vaca week so we never really celebrate hard enough
i looked at the recipe, and then nearly died
it called for 3 eggs
sadly enough, i only had one left
and it was all cuz of my brother's breakfast
oh mann
so know what i did?
i did the old fashioned. i went and asked my good neighbour for two eggs.
never would've imagined me doing something like that in my life. especially not at seventeen, but yeah.
at least i didnt borrow a cup of sugar. THAT would've been the ultimate cliche. oh mannn
and so i mixed all the ingredients and shoved it in a pan and into the oven
unfortunately things didnt go as plan
seemed like God just wasnt on my side - . -
anyway, what happened next was very troublesome
the batter overflowed from the pan [i KNEW it was too full] and was burning
geez, i panicked and immediately pulled it out of the oven
cleaning up whatever i could in the hot oven [yeah, hot. i didnt wait for the thing to cool. im impatient and stupid that way.]
ok, dad was due home in about an hour and a half and i had a half done batter that looked worse than the raccoon roadkill on pharmacy.
oh crap.
so with all my frustration and frantics, i just rushed outta the house with my bag and biked all the way to bridlewood mall in about 10 minutes
i swear i've never biked that fast before
because i forgot my bike lock at home [yeah shut up], i just shoved it into a slot on the rack and ran into price choppers like some sorta maniac
grabbing cake mix and eggs, i rushed to the line up for the cashier
five minutes [years] later, i got back on my luckily unstolen bike, and rushed home with jelly legs
i hate adrenaline sometimes
but in any case, nearly died at the door right then and there but struggled on
remade the cake and this time turned out alright
dammit, i hope he likes it. and that it tastes decent.
i was so starved today, i have no idea why
but yeah, scarfed down dinner [mcD wrap] and im still packing a few things here and there
sooo tired. ahh
ah well, my driving lessons start after i get back
woo hoo, running over people =P
and im not really excited about this trip, but eh, it'll come later
hope my fish will be ok on his own outside in my backyard =]
my sister is sending in about 30 cm of hair to the cancer hair donations thing
she still has a lot more to spare mind you, but yeah, nice thing to do
and im seriously tired now
but yeah, im gonna be heading off soon
so see you in a week =]
- Mood: tired
holy crap.
i was so bored today i decided to go to the park to read my book
and being the dumbass that i was, i was reading the back of the cover of my book while biking home
and next thing i know im being flung from my bike
i hit a parked van
yeah, it wasnt good.
i ended up scratching it
a neighbour nearby saw me fly
asked if i was alright
i was more worried about the van
the van owner came out and i told him about the scratch
he didnt seem to speak much english
he looked at it, called someone from his cell, spoke chinese, and then told me it was ok
my bike was so totalled >.< i couldnt ride it back, so i walked it
i think the front wheel is a little out of alignment
oh mann
scratched up my left elbow quite a bit
got a few bruises on my right arm and leg
my parents were NOT happy people when they found out
i dont blame them
geez, if this is me on a bike, imagine a car >.<
aiii
im just praying that guy forgives me and doesnt hunt me down later
ow..
- Mood:
OW.
ok, well decided to update this thing since i've really got nothing to do
just finished breakfast [banana walnut muffin! which i made]
and yeah..
so a few days ago i actually walked the stage, which was kinda unreal to me
seemed so blurred and strange cuz i never thought i'd make it
it really was that typical movie-cliched scene where the lights are blazing down on you as the outlines of graduates sitting before you are outlined and there's that voice congratulating you
so odd..
but yeah, it seemed unreal, mainly because i never thought i'd be up there this year
and now that grad's come and gone, i..
dont feel any different.
lol, i dont know if its just me
i still feel the same
these kinda things just dont seem to hit me too well
but yeah..it was pretty hectic before and after the ceremony
the luncheon was alright, never expected alex to show, lol
and i didnt expect to get that concentration of music thing or the honours + ontario scholar thing
but im not complaining =P
came to school at 8:30 that day of grad to finish up the cards with josh and enny
was in a huge rush, but managed to pull it off
i hope people like them =] its something that will help them to remember good times with us
hm, prom was great =]
got there pretty early with josh, but enny and jon were already there
at first we thought we got the wrong place, but turns out we were right
and you'd think "Le Parc" would be a little easier to find, but luckily i saw it the weekend before prom since i was passing by
so i didnt have trouble locating it
matched pretty good with josh =]
mann, i've never had so many roses in my house
but i still love the peach ones =]
took so many pics [which i still have to upload to a site] and had a great time
the food was kinda crap, but i was full from the pasta anyway
didnt dance much, til the end, but hung around the front hall instead of getting my ears blown off inside the banquet
which was quite nice, with hovering balloons and stars on the table =]
after prom, went stargazing with josh and came home at like, 1:30
slept at 2 and didnt get up til 1:30 pm the next day
lol, mannnn sleep is gooooood.
yesterday was a lot of fun too
went out at 4ish with josh to mel lastman square
holy crap, it was SO windy!
we stayed inside some mall, i forgot the name, and walked around [EDIT: empress walk mall. thanks josh]
later sat on a park bench in some sorta rose garden, and then had dinner at milestone's
great waitress there, forgot her name..leanne or something =]
watched the fireworks from the movie theatre windows along with several others
nearly froze to death outside
got home around 11:20, and watched more stars from inside the car [moonroof, oy]
spotted the big/little dipper..i wasnt quite sure which one it was, but im leaning towards big..
but yeah, had an awesome kickass time
i hope others had a great time at the beach yesterday! sorry i couldnt go
my family cancelled on seeing the fireworks at milliken
the fireworks at mel lastman were ok
i didnt watch the concert though
mannn, i think this has got to be the best week of my life so far =]
its such a nice day..
summer's here! =]
- Mood: woo!
- Music:best of me - the starting line
so FRICKEN bored. >.<
..yeah that's it. i cant think anymore.
- Mood: so bored i could scream
- Music:nothing's gonna stop us now - the starting line
i liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiive..
wow, its almost been two months since updation
lol, i just finished a calc unit, so decided to take a small break
working on physics soon
aii, i wish i knew what was wrong with me
ok, here's what i got so far:
i have an inferiority complex, meaning i cant help but feel like im not good enough at times
and when that happens, i find myself upset or angry
i list or think up possibilities as to why im not good enough
and then that lowers my self-esteem lower than it already is
which isnt healthy i suppose
then i get extremely frustrated and go at the punching bag
and in some cases, i get injured by it sadly
then i feel vented
but sooner or later, it starts over again
its a vicious cycle
rather unfortunate
but that's my life
and i cant seem to find a long lasting solution
so i ignore it when i can for now
on another note
i've been working my ass off for the longest time
down to 3 units [unit 15 calc, unit 12 physics, and unit 10 physics (which is actually a test)] and 3 tests, [calc 14, calc 15 inclass, and unit 10 physics as mentioned above]
im trying to finish everything by the third of june
which probably wont happen, cuz i plan to take my physics test on monday the 6th
but yes, i'm getting there
tomorrow is my york enrolment appointment and im as scared as hell
i read the advising package jerome kindly picked up for me and oy
those courses do not look like fun
its so strange
i work this hard just to get out of high school
to get into a university which is even harder
im completely repelled by the whole idea that just when im home free, i have another good five, six years of work ahead of me
this sorta sucks, but if i make it, then i get to be the teacher i wanna be
but will it be worth it?
and then what happens after that?
life is so terribly predictable and structured
but i gotta keep looking for those little things that make it special
was talking to derek [libermann] a while back
great catching up and all, and he gave me some pretty good advice
what i love about talking to him is that he knows of nothing i say
like, he doesnt know what the people i talk about are like
and therefore has no preconceptions of them
its totally unbiased =]
and thus i am able to get good advice
there are so many things going on at the same time
and i can feel myself changing
before, i was probably known as the decently smart but incredibly lazy person
like, if there was an assignment i really didnt wanna do, i probably wouldnt do it until i absolutely had to
as if there was a wall there, and i was slowly digging under it to get over
but now im just totally breaking it down
im almost there, and its so painful getting there, but i suppose i have no other direction to go
you know, a while ago jaq called and i dont remember why, but i remember she said "me and shirley are so proud of you" for working hard
and maybe she doesnt know how much that meant, but i felt so wonderful
and motivated me to keep on going, so thanks a lot =]
i've been having really odd dreams lately, need an interpretation book
lol >.<
its hard to imagine this year will end it all
i mean, four years just went by and i wasnt even awake half the time
like, our last concert was a couple weeks back
and it didnt even feel like it for me
just felt like another concert, and i'd be practising for a new one in september
but that wont be happening
and i cant seem to wake up to that fact
its so strange, kinda like that feeling as we were heading off to europe
on the plane, i was like, brian, we're going to europe, we're leaving canada, we wont be back for 13 days
and he goes, yeah, but the excitement isnt coming
and it was true for me too, it didnt come
and it doesnt seem to be coming now either
am i just insensitive, heartless, or denying?
well, parents are thinking of signing me up for violin lessons
which should be fun if i do end up doing it
oh, best of luck for your history exam in august shirley =]
im so tired of being tired
if that's possible
its such a pretty day and i cant go out and play
odd rhyme
aii..i just want this to be over, and yet at the same time i dont
cuz i cant imagine living life without the regular people who are around me
without the hallmonitors patrolling the scene, and BSing my way out
without the headless green monster there to greet me every morning im late
without having to turn the hall to look at the band schedule
without my TA being late and having to stand by the lockers
without teachers there to get me mixed up with either shirley or crys
without jogging up four flights of stairs to sign up for an english consultation with holmes every morning
without shirley telling me that i am, in fact, rather short
without, i cant believe im saying this, carson asking for a massage
without gassi's random jokes and midi theme song
without seeing enny's bag in miscellaneous areas, sitting there all alone, its owner nowhere in sight
without kristle wondering if im still here and if mister bunny is alive
without ever going on school trips with a class again
without kwan patiently helping me in calc [no matter how many times i ask]
without having 20 billion essays to edit
without jaq's weekdaily hugs
without cousin chris asking if i have KD for lunch today
without squishing my bag in someone's locker, anyone's but my own
without josh's watch to steal
without josie there to blow her lungs out on clarinet and mon sighing
without stephania's bitter and crud jokes
without mon and his ninja star
without lyris' swearing and sarcasm
without christa as my trench buddy
without being late after skipping because shirley's rental car would not start
without josh driving me home
without carson's "jamon" and "trippin" after multiple burns by yours truly
without poking tom
without being tackled [or "hugged"] by brian and his "aww"s
without hearing "ryllie" and "really" too many times in the same sentence by enny
without crys to rave about SK or teen titans with
without anne margareth's voice and defended opinion in philo club
without kelly showing up whenever d'agostino's not here
without jinuken and his hakkaness
without clarence's "what?"
without thea's lesson plans for AS
without nat to reminisce about bad dance moves
without brendan to complain about food, sleep, and work
without donald and his hair
without tracy and her green
without greeting alex as he comes in for school at 2
without ken to laugh at josh's horribly unscaled map
without sarah's smile and quiet wave
without lunch time walks around the pond
without having 12 random people follow you to your house to party
without cuschieri's stupidity as inspiration for a cuschieri comic sequel
without pat's extreme randomness that somehow makes you laugh
without hearing stage band cranking up "children of sanchez"
without kyle doing that neck thing that freaks me and crys out
without janice and her wild crazy self
without benny's long wavy hair and writer's craft asskickage
without ashley [hello young couple!] and bianca smiling as i walk to my locker with josh
without checking in shirley because she is here with me "spiritually"
without check in on a post-it note, piece of scrap paper, M&M or skittles wrapper, or cafeteria styrofoam plate [EDIT: and TTC transfers. thanks josh]
holy crap, ok, that's a lot of things to be missed.
and obviously when i said i'd be doing physics in a while, i lied. - . -
there are just so many things to say goodbye to and not enough to say hello
there's no way to delay this or stop it from happening
and its sad to have to leave
all that i can do right now is continue to work hard
and say goodbye when the times comes..
- Mood:
sentimentalish - Music:kids playing basketball outside
